I want to write one more word or two about Tungsten’s name… When I gave it to her, there was no reason behind it other than my fondness for it. But, when responding to one of the many who have kindly and patiently remarked upon my memories of my little cat, I realised something.
Tungsten is, of course, a component in the incandescent light bulb. As I understand it, it comprises the filament through which electricity passes; it then heats and glows, providing illumination. I knew this but did not connect it to my late friend. It is a tiny, thin but strong component of the bulb, it glows fiercely, so brightly that it blinds one to look directly upon it.
So it was with Tungsten. She was tiny and thin but strong, and brought light, bright light, but for only a short while.
All the people who told me that her name fit her were, of course, right, and I hadn't even seen it. But then I was very close to her, and one doesn’t always see what’s before one’s eyes, especially when it’s so bright.
We hadn't made the association either, but it's true! So she was very aptly named. Purrs.
ReplyDeleteI have a belief in "the light". It's hard to understand I suppose, but for me the light of the sun in it's many versions through the day make me so aware of the Spirit. Especially dappled light and the setting sun and the light growing dark epitomizes a ending more than physical. So for me where there is light there is life. So your Tungsten was definitely a bringer of light.
ReplyDeleteTungsten as a bright, shining light. Such a lovely way to remember her. Meow from Jessica and Eileen
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful and touching post. Tungsten's light is now part of the never ending universe and that little light will shine brightly for time immortal. She's already a part of the person you've become. Her special light shines inside of you.
ReplyDeleteI can't get over how pretty she is. I could gaze at her for hours.
ReplyDeleteNever has a name been so apt!!
ReplyDeleteHonestly, I hadn't made the connection either but but I can certainly see it. You obviously saw something in this beautiful girl right from the start...you'd even named her before she came to you.
ReplyDeleteHi John. This is John from StrangeRanger. I'm stopping by to say a few things. First, thank you very much for stopping by in the wake of our Maddie's death. Your words were spot-on; our cats are irreplaceable. Second, I'd like to offer my condolences to you on the loss of Tungsten. I've spent some time reading what you've written about her. She must have been as marvelous as Maddie. All I can say is that I wish I could write what I feel about Maddie's passing with the depth of feeling and grace with which you've honored Tungsten. Third, I hope you don't mind, but I gave you a link and a shout out on my blog.
ReplyDeleteI hope your memories of Tungsten bring you joy, even as you get used to life without her. I wish I could have met her.